Religion

          I began to study bible recently. The start was kind of like a coincidence. I have really great teachers. One thing that I like is they never try to persuade me to believe in the existence of god, but show me the proof and present me their emotions on their religion. I respect them. It's like opening a new world for me.
          I never considered religion seriously, and even has bias among it. My mom's family believes in Buddhism. My father's family believes in Christianity. When it comes to my parents, they are almost Atheism. My parents are really tough people, they built their business together from nothing. I always remember they told me never trying to depend on anyone. Even when I was a little girl I had to solve the problem myself. From the old people in my family I only saw the religion as a function of escaping from the reality, which is totally away from what my parents taught me. So when I was little I considered religion as a thing for people who find out no way in real life.   
         However I gradually realize there's spiritual need for a person. My parents grew up in the time when surviving was every thing. Policy changing in 1990s in China provided them the chance to develop. The built-in characters by their childhood life experience equipped them well on the way of fighting. Their struggling experience is hard to learn, but I respect their determined mind once setting up a goal. If someone asks me whether I have idol in my heart, I will answer my mom is the only one.
         When they were young they only considered to have a wealthy life. After having me and my sister, they only considered how to provide the best for their children. Just in recent years, persuaded by me, they began to think about their own life.
          There's no religious atmosphere in China. We are still immersed ourselves in the business of development. This is dangerous for current young generations, especially for those whose parents already built up a economic foundation for them. Compared to our parents, we grow up in a wealthy environment. Surviving is no longer a thing to be considered. Nowadays people need spiritual guide to help them on the way of developing, because out there are just too many allures. It's not the thing about superstitions. If we say law is the basic morality people have to obey, then religion is the higher level of morality. A society is necessary to possess one. For a country like China it's even more necessary.

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Desire

             Recently I find myself often stuck in the situation that repeatedly doing the things I hope I didn't do: little things, but always let desire takes over my brain, such as I would have been studying at that moment but I  didn't; I would have eaten healthier food but I didn't; I would have been sleeping, or awake, but always did the opposite. Then I'm thinking about why people can not perfectly control themselves. Obviously we know what is right; what is wrong, and more importantly what is good for ourselves, but we just can not do it.
             When I talked this to a really tough person, I mean really persistent and outstanding, he answered me:" this is the mankind, but before you take the action, ask yourself if it helps you to achieve your goal. If you have a strong and determined mind towards that, you will find yourself regretful after this. Since you will take the double suffering, time and emotion, after letting the desire to make your choice, you'd better calm down and make a wiser choice."
             However, to a personal degree, I believe there's no right or wrong answer to this. It all depends on one's life choice, and mankind's choice is open and flexible. Different phases we are in we have to change ourselves to adapt to it. 
             This also reminds me of my researching experience on 2008 Financial Crisis. One of the high frequent thing I read was mankind's imperfection, according to Keynes, the animal spirits. In a mathematical sense, market is a game: there's winners and there's losers. But if the game of the free market could be played by perfect rational people with perfect information, then it would be possible for there only to be winners. However markets are made of self-interested human beings. As long as there's the desire driving force, there's the mistakes. "If the trouble with socialism is socialism, the trouble with capitalism is capitalism."-The Great Game

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Horrible English

I just read Encomium de Helen by Gorgias. I really wanna express that it is horrible!!!

I read it loudly for the first time, which I completely couldn't get the meaning, but just had the feeling of what it's saying. And then I read sentence by sentence, checked the dictionary, analyzed the sentence structure, trying to understand it one by one. For the third time, I read it again to make the logical connection between each sentence, still I think I just understand 80% of the article. 

I have long time no this kind of feeling of reading an English article. Last time it was my preparation for the reading part in SAT. Every time reading this kind of article, the process is kind of toil, however, after really understand it, what left is a sense of achievement. 

Anyway I'm proud of myself that I didn't give up. ╮(￣▽￣")╭

Hardest Thing

        As I grow older, gradually realize doing one thing repeatedly, living life everyday as the same can be the hardest thing for a person, and the biggest obstacle we have to over come on our road of pursuit. Sometimes when people want to achieve something, they need to isolate themselves from group, and doing the same thing again and again day by day. A peaceful heart, and no wanders is so important this time.
       The world is full of temptation, confusing people what they really need, and want. Success doesn't mean money, reputation - any of those momentary things we can't control, but a person can lead the kind of life he wants.
      In my 20s, I hope I can figure out what I really want, no hesitation on the way of fight, and finally have a life without regrets.

puss in boots

I watched this movie with my friends this weekend. Puss is sooooo cute, especially his splendid eyes. Dream Works' animation is always good with its high quality, music, and creative story. I love this movie.